Journey with You

Yes, I am still waiting. Unlike last cycle, I haven’t had any symptoms (or imaginary symptoms) at all. Everything feels just the same as usual. If you want me to name one that’s not too usual, it probably would be the possible spotting today. It’s with some sticky/creamy kind of CM and all I could see was a couple of darker light brown spots. There was also very light brown/pink mark on the toilet paper. I got excited for a second and quickly told myself not get the hope up too quickly. After all, nothing is more convincing than a positive pregnancy test. So, I am still waiting to test.

We just got back from our visit to my auntie in NJ. It was such a tiring trip. We had a huge fight the night before Thanksgiving and neither of us had a good rest before the road trip. For some strange reasons, I decided to take a different route this time. As a result, we encountered a terrible snow storm between Syracuse and Albany. Road was slippery and the snow kept coming down. We saw at least six car crashes because of the bad road condition. That part of drive was like FOREVER. We already started thinking maybe we should forget about having a Thanksgiving dinner with my uncle and auntie and stayed in a hotel somewhere nearby. Well, we made it there safely and had our wonderful Thanksgiving with them. Thank goodness!! It was the worst driving I’ve ever had.

Black Friday. I went shopping with my aunt. Got a pair of shoes and a new purse for myself. Got a DDR pad for my younger cousin and a sweater for the older one. Got two turtle necks for DH. My aunt knew someone in the store so we had a pretty good deal.

It’s DPO 5 today. I’ve done the best I can in terms of DB timing. All I can do right now is to wait and pray.

It’s the forecasted ovulation day. OPK is positive again. Still having some wet CM. Very moody today. Had an argument with DH this morning and I almost took the afternoon off from work because I was so depressed.

We were both so stressed out by the whole thing. Not to mention our old problem. We just fought. He put me down and made me cry. I don’t know what I should do. I can’t live my life like this, having this drama every time trying to conceive.

I was so depressed and a guy at the other end of the phone told me “you should just get rid of that guy”. Maybe he is right.

We sat around the house on Saturday. The only outdoor thing we did on that day was going to an local art opening around 8pm. I haven’t been to these kinds of events for a while so it’s nice to be there. Some nice art works and we bumped into some friends, including my piano teacher.

Sunday, OPK test showed two lines that looked similar to each other. I thought the right line was darker than the surge line but they were so close that I decided to ask Matthias’ opinion. He said the right line was a little darker than the left one. So I decided it’s a negative. I got some watery like CM but it’s very possibly just the “residue” from the BD Saturday. I was not totally sure. My BBT was 97.3 on Saturday, 97.4 Sunday, and 97.5 today. My BBT usually drop one day and higher the next day. So the BBT is confusing my too. What’s going on? Am I going to ovulate soon?

I just had my OPK test and it was positive. Wish we’ve had BD yesterday. I guess my LH surge showed a fading-in pattern on OPK. I should remember this. Oh, well. All I can do now is keeping doing the thing until my BBT confirms the ovulation and hope for the best.

Well, I’ve been waiting for this 4th Harry Potter movie to come out for a while. This was the first time I bought movie tickets on line.

We went to see the movie last evening. It was packed. Tickets were totally sold out. I saw many kids with parents, people my age, and some elder people. I guess Harry Potter attract people of all different ages.

The movie was really good, I thought. Probably not as good as book itself, I’m afraid. The movie was not long enough to cover all details and seemed too fast paced to digest. Movie also changed some plots, which made me feel being cheated somehow.

Overall, I was satisfied and started looking forward to the next one.

OPK is still negative today. No obvious CM either. I guess I just need patience.

I went to a bookstore today and saw a book about a coming movie: Memoirs of a Geisha. What’s funny is that even though it’s about Japan, lead actresses are all Chinese. Anyway, I kinda curious about the movie now and bought the novel so I can read the book before the movie come out.