Journey with You

Ya!! I was half way through my pregnancy yesterday!!! So happy and so excited. It’s definitely a big milestone for me. Looking back, I feel I’ve been waiting for this day for a long, however at the same time, it’s only like yesterday I got my HPT positive!

I’ve been feeling my baby boy kicking and moving everyday. That’s the most miracle and wonderful experience I’ve ever had. I love my baby!!! I already love him so much!! I’ve noticed that he will wake up when the alarm goes off or when DH got up in the morning. He is also very active during lunch time and in the late afternoon through out the early evening. It’s so comforting to feel him moving around!!

We’ve been reading baby book and watch videos about babies. There is still a lot to learn. We also should start thinking about ordering a crib really soon since this book “Baby Bargains” mentioned that some crib orders take 3 months or so to fill. The only thing is that we can’t really decorate the room until we move it into the new house.

I love being pregnant. The weather finally got a little bit warmer and I eventually get to wear some of the light weight maternity clothes I got the past couple weeks. I love how I look in those clothes. I love my growing belly!!!

Our baby now can hear my voice as well as the voice outside the womb. We started talking to him out loud. Everything seems more and more real everyday. That’s just WONDERFUL!!!! We love our little boy!!!

One week from tomorrow I will be 20 weeks pregnant!!! Ya!!! I am almost half way through. How exciting!! He weighs approximately 8-9 oz now, still very tiny. However, I think I finally felt his movement last Monday. They were two very quick tapping at my lower left abdomen. It actually felt quite different from gas. I’ve been feeling him once or twice for the past week, with the exception of a couple of days not feeling anything. They said it’s common not too have regular fetal movement until about 24 weeks or so. It’s so nice to know that he is getting stronger everyday. I can’t wait to feel his strong kick constantly!!

Also, he can start hearing the sound outside the womb and is able to recognize my voice!! That’s so wonderful. I’ve been talking to him more and more and love it. I feel more and more like a mother everyday.
This morning I weighed myself and it was 127.5 lbs, which put me at 8.5 lbs weight gain starting the time I bought the scale. I am happy with it. I’ve been trying to eat lots of fruit and whole grain stuff but still give in to some junk snacks, like instant noodles, at times. :b

I went to do the maternity clothes shopping last week and over the weekend. Got some nice spring long sleeves shirts and a couple of dresses and pants at the discounted price. It’s the first day of spring today but it’s snowy this morning and the temperature was only at lower 30’s. I hope the spring come soon so I can wear lighter weight clothes or, even better, dresses. I hate pants that don’t fit right. At the store I heard this lady saying to her mother “I will never wear dresses when I am pregnant.” Not me!!!

Talked to Dr. Allan over the phone regarding my cyst last Thursday. She told me there is a remote chance of cancer but she would feel pretty comfortable to wait until six weeks after delivery to take care of it if we need to. (Of course I hope it will disappear itself then.) She said according to my last u/s, it looked like to her that my cyst was collapsing and it did get a little bit smaller. She also reassured me that both my ovaries are fine. Cyst just stretches it but doesn’t eat away the ovary. As long as there is no torsion my ovaries are fine and at the stage of pregnancy I am at the chance of torsion happening is getting smaller. I felt much better after talking to her. I know no doctor can guarantee me 100% that it’s not cancerous. However according to the doctor’s response and my own intuition, I feel chances are pretty good that my cyst is benign. Of course I am still praying everyday that it gets smaller and smaller everyday and soon disappear all together!!! Keeping my fingers crossed!!

Ya!! I had my BIG u/s yesterday. I was so nervous before hand, praying my baby be fine and the cyst be lost. We brought a video tape with us and taped the whole thing.

The day before u/s we went to visit my mother-in-law. I asked what her intuition is on the baby’s gender. She said a girl. Before we found out, there were only DH’s aunt and one of my coworker said we are having a boy. Others all said it’s a girl.

As soon as the sonographer put the scan on my tummy, we saw our little one. I felt so relieved to see the baby moving around, heart pumping. She measured my cyst first, which had shrunk a little bit but unfortunately was still there. Then she measured baby’s CRL, the head, the waist, the leg bone. She checked the heart, kidney, bladder, brain, and the different parts of bones. Everything looked perfect. And when she took at look from the bottom of the baby, we easily saw that BOY part!!! To our surprise, IT’S A BOY!!! We were both very excited to find out. He measured right on track: 13w6d. My cervix and amino fluid both look good as well. I thought the BIG u/s will take a lot longer but it actually only took about 20-30 minutes or so.

We then met with Dr. B. She used the Doppler to check the heartbeat first. It’s in the 150’s. Then we started asking her about cyst related concerns. When we mentioned about delaying the procedure after delivery so we can have a natural birth, she said we may delay the treatment if it’s cancerous. I was so shocked to hear that because so far no one, including nurses, Dr. A and the doctor at the radiology place, ever told me it could be cancerous. She mentioned there is septation in my cyst, which is another thing I’ve never told before. She then started saying that she can only guarantee one of my ovaries is fine since they couldn’t find it at the radiology place. (According to the doctor and the technician there, it’s because of my uterus was in the way and they couldn’t find the right angle.) She said the cyst could just cover the whole ovary and that cyst won’t be good anymore but she couldn’t be sure until they “see” it. DH both felt that she was really cold about the whole thing and made it sound like it’s nothing. I felt she didn’t read through my record before seeing me because while we talked she flipped through the record and said “oh! Actually it’s shrunk quite a bit.”, like she just noticed it!! Is she supposed to know it before she came to see us?

Anyway, we are both very grateful that our little boy is doing great. Thank God for blessing with a healthy baby boy!! We will continue our prayer and are hoping we’ll get more good news on cyst in four weeks.

I contacted the doctor’s office this morning and was hoping to talk to Dr. A regarding my cyst. She was not in so I talked to nurse Jackie. She told me, once again, there is no septation and it’s not cancerous and both my ovaries are fine. I then got a hold of an OB/GYN I know in Taiwan about having C-section for the cyst. He said it’s unnecessary. He said he would recommend a natural birth and use laparoscopy after delivery. There is a chance of torsion and he didn’t seem to be too worried about it. He also disagreed that cyst will just “eat away” the ovary. He said as long as I don’t have any sever pain chances are my ovaries are fine. He also said hemorrhage in a cyst is actually a sign that it’s benign. I definitely felt much better and secured after talking to him, but at the same time, felt annoying by Dr. B’s ignorance. Thank goodness I’ve been able to get a second opinion.

I like to count my days according to the most recent u/s measurements, which puts me on 17w0d today!!!

6 more days and it will be our BIG ultrasound. So excited and so nervous. Hoping the baby is doing great and everything is on track; hoping my cyst is smaller or gone completely. Praying for a blessing!!

Last weekend, DH put his hand on my belly for a few minutes without a word. When he was done, he announced “It’s a girl. She is communicating with me, I can feel it.” I wonder how he did it because I haven’t had any strong intuition on whether it’s a girl or a boy. I don’t have any strong preference but do sometimes think it would be nice to have a boy before having a girl so she will have someone to protect her. But I will be willing to go with the flow. After all, the most important thing is baby’s wellness.

Last night, I asked DH again “so you think it’s a girl?” He said, “I am not really sure now.” O_o He said boys can carry on the family name but he would worry his son won’t be close to him or not good looking enough. -_-

Anyway, next Monday can’t come quick enough!!!!!! God bless us and our little one!!!

Basing on last u/s measurement, I should be around 16w2d today!! Less than two weeks we’ll get to see our little one again. This time we are going to bring a video tape with us and hopefully we’ll find out if it’s a boy or a girl. I dreamed once that it’s a boy but who knows. I asked DH what he thinks right now (he thought it’s a girl in the beginning), he said he almost felt it’s a boy now. Can’t wait for our BIG u/s and seeing our little one moving around and looking healthy.

The other thing I am praying everyday is my cyst to go away. At my last specialist visit, my cyst was still about 11*9, the same as before. The doctor said his only concern was the size of it but not what’s in the cyst because it didn’t look cancerous to him. My OB/GYN agreed and we’re going to check it again at my BIG u/s. I am keeping my fingers crossed and keeping it in my prayer everyday that it would decrease its size, or even better, disappear. We are also going to talk about how the cyst would affect our choices of delivery. We don’t want C-section if we can but then we may risk the ovaries being twisted after the delivery. Removing the cyst during the 2nd trimester is another option. God bless us everything works out fine.

Some people in my buddy group on FF already felt the baby moving. I feel so jealous. I am still waiting. They say you the first time moms usually don’t feel the fetal movement until around 20th week. I am so looking forward to it. It will be so reassuring and exciting!!!

My appetite has been getting better and people at work probably think I eat all day. I feel hungry about every 2-3 hours. I’ve got some craving too. Noodle soup, especially hot and hour kind like the Korean kimchi soup, juicy fruits, dry noodle snacks, duck wings. I can eat these things all day long.

The other thing happening right now is our purchase of a new house. It’s a beautiful house with 1st floor chimney, 2nd floor pocket door and French room. It also has several big windows and the house is thus very sunny. There are some works needed to be done but I am so looking forward to moving in there and waiting for our precious little one to come and join us.