Journey with You

Yep, about a week after Cyrus 9months old birthday, I saw another tooth coming in. It’s right next to the first one. Now, we have two teeth. YA!!

Don’t know if teething is the reason, he’s been fussier lately. He usually is quite cooperative during dinner but he hasn’t had much patient these days. He used to like chewing on a bagel but he hasn’t seemed to be too interested either. I gave him rice cakes for a change but it didn’t make too big a difference. I hope this will change soon. All I want is simply a quite, smooth dinnertime without needing to pick him up from the chair.

We’ve been training Cyrus to sleep for a good 6 hours without nursing. We’ve seen a slow but steady progress. On weekends, I’ll sleep in our room and DH would wake up to comfort him when he wakes up between midnight and 5am. Though the doctor said to try putting him to bed at around 10:30pm, Cyrus has his own routine and tends to fall asleep somewhere between 9pm and 9:30pm, even if he naps in the evening. He usually wakes up at 11:30pm or midnight. I would nurse him then and put him down. Sometimes he falls right back to sleep but other times fusses for a few minutes. When I sleep in his room during weeknights, I would pull the comforter over my head so he can’t see me. He knows I’m there though because he looks right at this direction.

It’s definitely easier if I’m in a different room but this is simple the best way to go for DH. He is a light sleeper. For the last couple nights, I would let him cry back to sleep if he wakes up between midnight and 5am. The time it takes varies but I sure hope it will get shorter and shorter. Training a baby to sleep through the night is not an easy task that’s for sure.

I just had my 31 years old birthday last week. The only people remembered my birthday is my father-in-law and my parents. DH totally forgot it until his dad told him over the phone. Though he went and bought a card and a cake and took me to a dinner after that, it’s not a great birthday at all. He was giving me a hard time about how we’re not suited for each other. What a great topic to talk about on my birthday! I’ve been pretty depressed lately. I felt being trapped in. At the same time, I feel it’s so bad and unfair for Cyrus if we get divorce. Furthermore, I am so hoping to get pregnant again. I am really conflicted and confused. I hope there was an easy way out but I don’t think so.