Journey with You

I went to see the infertility doctor last Saturday. I know that usually they tell you to see an infertility doctor after a year of trying. I feel my situation is different and I don’t want to wait for a year.

I brought my fertility friend charts of the last six cycles with me. I was nervous the doctor would think it’s useless. It turned out he wanted me to do the exact same thing I’ve been doing: taking BBT, charting, and using OPKs.

He is the top doctor in the field and I think he is a real doctor. He was patient and detailed. He let me address my concern and questions. He took down my medical history and looked at my FF charts. He said even though we tried four times but I might have only ovulated the last two cycles or we might not have timed well the first two times.

He also said it would be a good idea to finish weaning. He said that could be the reason if I didn’t ovulate those two possible cycles. He said to keep doing what I’m doing and if I don’t ovulate (according to OPK) for two more times then come and see him again. If I do ovulate then try another four times before I make another appointment with him. He said because of the surgery I had there is a small chance of scar tissue is the problem but we’re not worrying about it until another four times of TTC.

I really want to be pregnant again but the idea of weaning is making me sad. Cyrus was saying “ne ne” to me a few times over the weekend and I hate to say no to him. I love holding him in my arms and nurse him. We explained to him that we are trying to have another child to join us and the doctor said it would be harder if I keep nursing. I don’t know how much he actually understood but this morning he grabbed my shirt and said “ne ne” again. I said “I am sorry but I can’t.” He said “doctor. doctor.” and didn’t ask for it again. Aw….I felt so bad.

Just when I thought I was getting my life back finally (until next tax season comes), Cyrus started having high fever. What’s funny was that I just read on a mom’s blog about her daughter got roseola and had fever for a few days. Cyrus is at the age of being effected by the virus.

Thank goodness DH could leave work early and took him to the doctor’s office. It was the day before the tax season was over and I couldn’t leave work early. They didn’t see our regular doctor. DH told me Dr. L was cold and didn’t give him much information. He said it’s probably roseola but we won’t know until a few days later. He told us to give Cyrus Motrin every six hours. DH didn’t feel good about Dr. L so I had to call Dr. S to go over everything again.

Cyrus was very crabby all week. He didn’t eat much either. Good thing was that his fever seemed to finally go away today. We started to worry what if it’s not roseola. Dr. S said they will need to do some tests if his fever didn’t go away by Sunday. We’re keeping our fingers crossed. Hopefully it’s as simple as roseola.

The weather is warming up finally. I went to shop for Cyrus’ summer PJs yesterday. I am quite annoyed by the fact that there are always more cute girl clothes. I am so tired of those sports/cars theme for boys. It’s getting harder and harder to find outfits that I like for Cyrus. Sometimes brand names have better selections but they are simply too pricey!

Maybe I should check out e-bay again!

My brother-in-law is getting married on June 6th. They’ve picked this place call Oheka Castle in Long Island. It not only looks expensive; it is expensive. We are going to drive a thousand miles down there and spend $300 per night there for two nights.

DH is supposed to be the best man and I one of the bridesmaids. The bride picked this boutique store in Long Island for dresses. My dress costs more than my own wedding gown. She also says we need to get non-open-toes golden shoes. Anyways…everything is an ordeal and everything has to be exactly what she is expecting.

Our biggest problem now is that we may not have anyone to watch Cyrus. The wedding is at five but we need to get ready beforehand and have photos taken in the afternoon. Cyrus naps between 12:30pm – 5pm and someone needs to be in the room with him. However, we are not comfortable having a stranger (nanny) there alone with him when he’s sleeping. My MIL is a good option but unfortunately she doesn’t even know if she can make it due to her health.

We thought about my aunt and cousin who live in NJ. Thanks to the Friday wedding, my aunt needs to watch the restaurant and my cousin needs to go to school! We’ve brainstormed for a long time but can’t come up with any good solutions. I think we both realize the worst scenario would be that one of us bows out of the wedding. No one is going to be happy but they could have helped us more on this!