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世界上什麼最重要?金錢?事業?物質享受?

最近無意中在網路上看到這個家庭的故事。兩歲多的小孩被診斷出罹患罕見的癌症,即便做了許多的手術及治療還是被宣告terminal(無藥可醫)。剛滿五歲後的兩週,孩子還是走了。媽媽在這個網頁上描述他們一家人一路來的辛酸血淚。看到她描寫他們父母兩人陪著兒子走人生的最後一段路,看到她描寫他們在兒子嚥氣後幫他洗澡,抱著他最後一次,真的讓人熱淚盈眶。

I scooped Ty into my arms while Lou wrapped us both in his. For a moment, Ty’s eyes remained open and I stared into them so intently because I needed to be sure that he was witnessing something beautiful. I promise you he was. Through our tears we assured Ty that it was okay for him to go because he was taking us with him in his heart. Over and over we told him I love you. We told him how proud we are of him. We thanked him for letting us be his parents. We encouraged him to play, to eat candy in heaven and to slide down the rainbows into huge puddles of mud. His last breath was a tremendous gasp – not because he was gasping for air – it was a gasp like when you witness something beautiful and exciting. Like fireworks. I have to believe with all my heart that he was excited.

When our beautiful nurse came to pronounce him, she was so warm. She shared with me her experiences and they gave me so much comfort knowing that she witnessed others passing who proved to be similarly happy and at peace. She also told me that when she came to see him yesterday, she felt very strongly that Ty was already gone. When she told me that I realized that maybe she was right. I like to think that he was exploring, being greeted by his friends in heaven and deciding what to do. When he opened his eyes he was showing us that he was seeing pure beauty and he just was coming back to us to say goodbye.

Ty’s beautiful little body stayed warm for a long time. I didn’t expect that. The top of his head. His back. His belly. So soft and so warm, we rested our hands there for I don’t know how long. We took turns holding Ty. Walking around with him and kissing him. It felt so good to hold him on my shoulder and kiss the crook of his neck without hurting him. Lou was squeezing him and loving him all up, too. Finally, to hold him without hurting him felt so beautiful. We stayed together, just the three of us, for the next five hours or so before inviting our family back upstairs. I will always cherish that private time we had together.

有時候我們花太多的時間在抱怨,在感到不滿。我們是不是應該把那些抱怨的時間換作感恩?感謝我們擁有的,而不是羨慕我們沒有而別人有的。

世界上什麼最重要?